Someone Else's Star

I heard this song last night and it really resonated with me.

Although I am very blessed, I sometimes wonder how some find love, but I cannot.

Not that I've been looking very hard.

In fact, not at all.

I knew when Dave left I'd need to focus on taking care of the kids, getting a degree and paying the bills.

That's a lot to do. Adding dating to that list just didn't seem feasible. I had to focus my efforts on raising three kids. All. By. Myself.

Lot's of people do jump right back into the dating scene, and that's okay. For them. I didn't want to look back and say that I put dating before my kids needs.

So here I am. Alone. But not lonely.

I've got friends and family. And old Jack.

But I do find myself wishing I had someone to cook dinner for. Someone to take trips with. Someone to make sure I don't fall off a ladder!

Maybe it just isn't meant to be.

God knows what I need.

And maybe that means I won't find someone to spend the rest of my days with.

And I'm trying to accept that.

Or maybe I will.

Meanwhile, maybe I need to wish on my star instead.