He Will Cover You With His Feathers.

I struggle with worry. All the time. I inherited it from Mom. She's a worrier.

I hope I didn't pass it on to my children, but I'm sure watching me worry has affected them.

I used to lay in bed at night with the lights out and worry. Is Allie safe in her apartment? Is Josh safe on the road? Will David pass his test? The worries would go on and on. I finally learned to pray after I turned out the lights. Dear Lord, please protect my children. And then I could go to sleep.

But then I'd wake up the next morning and start the worrying all over.

Having children has been the greatest joy of my life. But with that came the worries. Starting from the pregnancy. Will this baby be healthy? And then while they're infants. Is this fever something serious? And then when they head to school. Will my child make good friends?

And then they start to drive a car! Oh boy!

Lots of worries in the middle of all the joy.

Now I have a new worry on my worry list - Ezra. I think I worry about him more than I did my own children. And that's saying a lot!

In February I'll have the joy of loving a granddaughter. But I find myself worrying about her already.

There are so many things in the news that add to my list of worries. Ebola. Terrorists. Unemployment.

Worry, worry, worry.

I want to find peace. I want to live the rest of my life in a peaceful state. After all, I really don't have any control over what happens to my family. So I'm going to try and embrace peace. Even if things aren't perfect, they're good.

I don't have a husband, but I have three precious children who love me.

I don't make much money, but I have enough. More than so many people have.

So I'm going to try and let go of all this worry and focus on being at peace. Even in a world that isn't peaceful.

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27

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He will cover you with his feathers. He will shelter you with his wings. His faithful promises are your armor and protection. Do not be afraid of the terrors of the night, nor the arrow that flies in the day. Psalm 91